Cosmic Release & Renew!

For a period of time, I worked on an IT helpdesk.  Back in the archaic dos days, when you needed your pc to release its current IP address, you would type on that grainy black window with white blinking writing IP Release, give the pc a moment to think and then you would type IP Renew to obtain a new IP.  Well this is the week we engage in Cosmic Release & Renew.

I don’t know about you but never in my adult life have I drudged through a year like 2016, that never quite got off the starting blocks but whizzed by all at the same time.  Lots of hurry up and waits and lots and lots and lots of contrast.  Lots of light and dark, lots of happy, many sads.  2016 the Year of the Lessons.  There were moments of utter heart-break and then minutes of tearful joy.  There were deafening periods of loss and crystal bolts of awareness.  It was a year of release, we now look forward to the renew …

So what have I learned … normally I go into each New Year filled with over-enthusiastic, naïve excitement about the promise of what will be.  I already know that 2017 will bring lots of change for me, I don’t mind change but sometimes the catalyst is pyroclastic.  While I am aware and eager for what is to come … this year I am going to slip quietly into 2017, trying not to many too many waves.  I am going to Release 2016 and cuddle her close, whispering in her ear my thanks for her lessons – there were many.  She has prepared me for what is to come, made me wiser, more intuitive, more self-sufficient, more aware of who I am, what I will tolerate … if sadly a little less naïve.  But here we go …

I Lovingly Release 2016

And I Graciously Renew into 2017

I set no “New Year’s Resolutions” as such but I do set intentions for the year.  I will still do that.  But I do definitely know one thing at the root of my being in 2017 I want to be Building More Temples and I want this year to be defining.

What are you releasing in 2016 – leaving it firmly there and what are you Renewing in 2017.  I look forward to hearing from you …

SO Much Love Always!
Collette in Cape Town

Songs of the PostRISE by Katy Perry

Find Your Tribe and LOVE them HARD!

When you have been away, walked away, not gone back, removed yourself, for whatever reason, it is hard to go back.  You wait to be asked, invited, but what if the invite never comes?  It is hard to be in the presence of the moment that hurt you and live in that moment … silently.  What if the acknowledgement never comes?  What if you never hear the words?  What do you do then?  It can be hard.  And it takes courage to go there again, to go back to not hear the acknowledgement, to sit in the reality of it all.

Sometimes you don’t know what to say?  You don’t know how to say you are sorry for the event, for the silence.  I mean sometimes what can you say, but then the silence lingers longer and then like an angry, armadillo scrunched up in a tight ball … it gets even harder and longer and even more silent.

Then sometimes we really believe that we were right and that they were wrong (that pesky ego) and that they need to understand how much that hurt … but in reality we only separate ourselves, we want them to feel our pain, make them squirm, make them feel it – again we are scrunched up into an armadillo ball.  Hard and angry and then what is that doing to our bodies and our minds?  

I have been to the silence and waited and waited … I have been silent here, not having anything particularly mind-blowing to say, to offer, to learn and it was hard coming back today.  Hard seeing that six long months have passed since I have written here.  Not without friends lovingly nudging me.  When am I going to see more writing?  When indeed, I wondered?  I had some ideas but nothing impressed itself to my mind enough to stay and then as time dragged on, I questioned the content.  THEN something happens, there is a softening, an unfolding, a realization and something cracks open and the light streams out and then you remember – oh yes, I have missed this.  I have missed that feeling in your presence.  I have missed being here …

Again I am reminded of that quote by Rumi:            

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I'll meet you there.”

So what have I learned and what am I saying …

Go have that conversation sooner rather than later.  Go back quicker, because the longer you wait, the harder it gets.  I am not saying be the doormat (NEVER EVER!), but I am suggesting going into that uncomfortable space of explaining how much that hurt, how hard it was, even if you were wrong.

And then Find Your Tribe and LOVE them HARD, because we were not designed to be isolated, alone, in the silence.  We were designed to find our peeps and LOVE THEM HARD!

SO Much Love Always!
Collette in Cape Town

Songs of the Post RISE by Katy Perry

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